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Money Shoppe Company (SM)
This is JUST my version of "WHAT IS...?" and the simple OPINION, "NO" its not about Money, nor Finances, it just about my OPINION AS I SEE IT AND HAVE DIRECTLY DEALT WITH IT IN MY LIFE TIME. Some feel that based on the COLOR of my Skin or the fact I am 100% Openly Queer, I am to SHUT UP and/or stay in my PLACE, the HELL if that's going to happen now or ever!
This OPINION is solely based on me and my experiences in life, if they are somewhat same or similar to others that is in a way COOL and frighten to me, since I would "NOT" put what I went through on anyone, and at times I ask G-d why me and hey all I know if G-d put it on me He felt I could handle it...and He was right. So I don't question His wisdom at least 93.5% of the times, but this time I DO ask the "WHY" and to this date I have gotten N-O, no answer...but He will answer it or He already Has and I am not aware of it YET...but in time such will be known to me.
Now, when I was a kid I heard the "N" Word a lot from those of Color and Non color, what confused me was the simply fact that its a WORD that was associated with RACISM and HATE, was so readily used and N-O, no one of Color said anything, but lets DANCED (SICK, But True) so, the fact whoever used it was very distasteful to me and over the years I just DISLIKED the word in any form, but at times I heard those of color would use the word in their music and its was ok for them, but not for me and I would stay away from purchasing their music, period - but I would hear such on the radio at which I would TURN it off and I LOVE Music and that was "NOT" music to me, period - it was about hate and control.
Now over time I know others behind my back would say hateful things about me...but I was told by my PARENT who loved me for me - that such people are evil and they think they are going to Heaven, but the BIG secret was they are "NOT" but they are going to the BAD PLACE...G-d is LOVE, NOT Hate, RACISM, nor does He hate on those like me that are part of the QUEER WORLD. They call themselves Conservative Christians, but they are "NOT" of the LORD O' G-D they use His words against thee to further their own purpose they are of PURE HATE, their is N-O, no love in their hearts, just HATE for those of Color, LGBTQ+, and anyone who is against their HATE, and yes they will USE the Good Holy Name of the LORD...is all Conservative Christians like this "N-O, no" they are NOT some are GOOD and OF THE LORD THY G-D, but Evil hides them from YOU until its TOO LATE, SO,WHO IS ON THE LORD THY G-D SIDE AND WHO IS NOT, was once said by Moses of those who SINNED against G-D, yet they still do it NOW He Cometh... remember, it is G-d who anoint us with his Holy Oils, not mere men - SO, ASK THEM WHO DO YOU SPEAK FOR? And how they answer YOU will also be placed in their book of LIFE, Sayth the LORD THY G-D. What they say in just "NOT" on them, but is also on their Family KIDS, WIFE, PARENTS, ET AL. As, I said in Prior BLOGS - Some will Agree, while others will "NOT" and hey that is their right, to continue to HATE and use Racism, but NOT the LORD, PERIOD.
I was RAPED and Assaulted while in again CDOC and I went to a White Captain Female who claimed she was a Conservative Christian and she just looked at me and she did nothing to help me or protect me, period...they placed me in the SEG. HOLE on the third Floor and I am ADA, and should NOT have been of the third floor, but again they cared less and when I tried to tell CDOC of this they too did NOTHING and they still lie and hide the facts for I almost forgot she the Captain was a WHITE FEMALE and I was a QUEER, BLACK MAN and I didn't have the same rights as those who were not like me, but yet they raped me, so they are like me.
I was always told that in life I was SPECIAL and that G-d has/had a plan for me and He would let me know of it in life or death, but the PLAN is YOU...so let them hate on YOU remember He LOVES YOU for YOU, that includes YOUR QUEERNESS and the Color of YOUR Skin, too. As I got older in life I met a few cool and some good to great people as well as evil and hateful people and I will talk about them all at different times some in this article, others "NOT" so much...because the mention or thought of the EVIL PEOPLE, just make by world go from light to dark real quick and I get very UPSET, so I will "NOT" talk about them...period.
As, I stated in the Article over the years I met some very COOL AS* PEOPLE, one was this guy who I loved and he LOVED me back, but such was a type, in the of LOVE that was ONE SIDED and I understood that, since I was YOUNG and in prison, in the State of Colorado and in a town so racist and hateful that the people in that town was in a denial state, at times it was FUNNY, but real and I blamed "NO ONE" for were I was it was my doing - SO, LIKE MY DADDY TOLD ME I DID THE CRIME I DO THE TIME, THAT GOES WITH IT, PERIOD.
Now back to the LOVE OF MY LIFE, YES, he was my cellmate and he was WHITE OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT, he did have some color, but HELL NO he was "NOT" BLACK IN COLOR...my prison friend, called PRINCE was so damn cool he/she was the BEST, but in time I was PAROLED and that part of my life was my past and that again is my PAST that I will NEVER VISIT AGAIN - EVER.
While in prison I was called the "N" Word sometimes by Prison Guards, as well as inmates (White and/or Latino) over the Year it was like WATER ON MY BACK, IT RAN OFF, other times it was just too much...I told it to those in CDOC and they did NOTHING, NO SHOCKER HERE, I even took it to the Federal Court system and they too DID NOTHING, even when I told them I was RAPED, as well as Assaulted both by inmates and guards, again nothing was EVER done even on the Federal Level, so I moved on the BEST WAY I could, both my parents are GONE, but NEVER FORGOTTEN by me I LOVED THEM THEN AND I LOVE THEM EVEN MORE NOW - I never got to tell them that I thank them everyday for LOVING ME and I will LOVE them and my G-d FOREVER AND EVER.
When G-d give me the GIFT OF LIFE and to the world greatest parents, Robert and Barbara Sims - O' LORD THANK THEE FOR BLESSING ME - SHA'LOM, those who call Him He Hears them NOT, but they think He hears them...my Pains in LIFE, is mine and for the PAINS that they have caused me and my ancestors, shall NEVER BE forgotten, nor forgiven, for a sin is a sin, Sayth the Father SHA'LOM.
Everyday, I close my eyes I remember the pains of those that RAPED ME and BEAT ME, and NOTHING EVER WAS DONE...everyday I see that they walk the street as FREE MEN/WOMEN, while I suffer, but I have G-d and my earthly pain, et al are forever mine, but with Him I am truly FREE.
No, I cannot Hate them for this is was they were made to be and those who made them that way I shall blame YOU and hold THEE accountable for what I was made to endure, because of YOU and YOUR HATE...so, I say O' LORD IF I LIVE I SAY THANK THEE FOR THE PAINS YOU HAVE TAKEN FROM ME, BUT THOSE WHO HATE, CAUSED RACISM OR RACIST REMARKS BE THEM HOMOPHOBIC, TRANSPHOBIC AND/OR ZENOPHOBIC TURN FROM THEM AND THEIRS FOREVER AND EVER.
O' LORD THERE ARE SOME VERY GOOD PEOPLE WHO ARE NOT OF COLOR AND I WILL SEEK THEM AND FIND THEM, THEY WILL KNOW ME WHEN I SPEAK TO THEM WITHOUT SPEAKING TO THEM - SHA'LOM.